September 20th

I wrote this a couple weeks ago & didn't post it, but here it is now! Today is my due date! Today Jack is 2 weeks old! This is one more testament to God's perfect timing. I was determined that Jack would be late, but he was 2 weeks early. God knew what he was doing. :) At this point we've already gotten 2 weeks with our little guy & he is already growing like crazy. I'm pretty sure he has outgrown the newborn diapers - at least that's what I was thinking when he peed all over me earlier (out the top or side of the diaper?? I still don't know how he managed it). We've already had 2 weeks of bonding & getting to know him, 2 weeks of sleepless nights, 2 weeks of precious baby noises, 2 weeks of diaper changes, 2 weeks of transitioning to a new life stage... It's flown by & I feel like each day gets better & better. I can't say I'm a fan of the whole hormonal roller coaster you get to ride after giving birth. That part is no fun & I've hated not feeling like myself. Random crying, anxiety, feeling overwhelmed by a new little life who is completely dependent on me - those aren't things I've enjoyed walking through. However, every day gets better - I cry less, feel more excited than anxious, & I feel more comfortable with, & thankful for the gift God has given us. Most of all, I feel like my capacity to love this precious little one multplies as each day goes by. I feel kind of weird putting all these feelings out there, but I have appreciated all those moms who have been so honest with me about their struggles in the first month of mommyhood & so I'm trying to be honest about mine. Speaking of feelings, I love this little guy more every day! I think his Daddy is pretty stinkin' awesome too! You can't see John in this pic, but he was right there hanging out with Jack. Watching them together is one of my favorite things to do these days!